To make you smile :)

Vanilla twilight

As many times as I blink,
I'll think of you tonight

TODAY!!!! I did my Napfa 5 stations hehehehe so proud of myself because I got A for sit ups, shuttle run and INCLINED PULL UP! hehehe :/ but B for standing broadjump and sit and reach :( <- 1 more cm to A! but it's lousy considering I used to be a dancerrr. Must train! & 2.4 next weeek!

anyway today someone at Macs gave me the Doraemon toy which comes with the meal hehe it's still inside my bag!

You know this week turned out pretty well :) I sort of love even weeks.. except for the physics test today :X hehe And gotta complete my PI [MR TAY ACCEPTED IT! :)]
okay. Becoming self high already~

Today - Somedays I feel almost happy again

TEEHEES :)

hi PW thanks for being such a pain in the neck.
HAH! :D hope my idea doesnt get rejected again!! :X

I need start being happy again, even if it means getting over you and how you used to make me smile.

what am I supposed to say?
like thank you?

because you don't anymore.

What happened?

I don't even dare to look into your eyes and talk to you properly anymore. It's too difficult.

Avril lavigne - Things i'll never say

Yeah, from you

As much as I dont want to, i believe it now.
I guess I just thought I could continue lying to myself so the truth wouldnt hurt me. But now that it's all out in the open, how am i supposed to carry on running away?

It doesn’t make sense to let go of something you had for so long,
but it doesn’t make sense to hold on when nothing’s there too.

Katherine Mcphee - Say Goodbye

Did you ever love me?
Does it even matter?
Did you even notice the whole world shatter?
I just want to hold you til you know Im sorry
But I just keep it all inside
That way it wont hurt so much
When we say goodbye

& the reason is you

The ugly truth

Why did you change?

I don't wanna be no broken hearted girl

hi. I got it, there's no point.
How many times can your heart break?
How many pieces can your heart break into?
How many more times do you want to sit in the dark?
How much longer do you want to wait, to hurt?
I'm not sure how much longer I can hold.

Now all that's left of me
is what i pretend to be
so together
but so broken up inside
cause I can't breathe
no I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

As I watched you walk away

it hurts to let go,
but it hurts even more to hold on.

Hi i'm sorry if I'm being so quiet or whatever but i can't help it. I don't feel like talking to anyone and neither is there a need to explain how I'm feeling. It doesn't really matter anyway. Nothing will make it okay.

sometimes, I just wanna be somewhere, anywhere else. I feel so weird that I'd rather be invisible.

Oh I miss you, you know

may be surrounded by,
a million people I,
still feel all alone

Hi sometimes I don't understand

but she cries cries cries
in her lonely heart thinking
if there's nothing missing in my life
then why do these tears come at night;

hi i am in a semi bad mood now.
whatever. sighz

& when it rains

But do you know that it doesn't help that it has been raining everyday.
It makes me feel so sad sometimes and now walking in the rain just makes me want to cry when I used to love dancing in it.

When it rains, do you think of me too?

Hi so I survived Monday w/o falling asleep at all although I slept at 4.30am!!
So proud of myself cause I was so attentive in class somemore :)
but I'm really tired now and I feel like going to sleep after i type this :X
anyway my class is getting v v v interesting heh :) so scandal-icious ahhhh:)

but you dont get it either

hi I dont know.
I feel like asking you if it's really true.
If that's how you really feel.
If you're really treating it as a time to fly away from me.

Sometimes I feel like I have to hear it coming from you till I'd believe it. I still remember what you asked me. So is this the time where you'd go? Is it because of something you heard from someone which came from me (which actually isn't true anymore)? Or is it because everything I thought was real never really existed at all?
I'm sorry if I ever took you for granted, but i just thought that you'd always be here. I guess I thought wrong.

i feel really silly stupid and naive now because of everything which I have just typed. But i'm like 16, how mature am i supposed to be?
I dont know what I want. bye.

hi this made me smile although i'm feeling like :/

Spongebob will always be cute :)

I can honestly say
You've been on my mind
since i woke up today

this is why it's never going to be okay.

I wasnt ready to move on, but I guess you were.

Hi.
That was all I needed to know. Someone to put the truth in my face and slap me real hard so I'd snap out of it and stop being stubborn.

But everything felt so real to me that I thought it was. Was it? It seems so forgotten, but it's here with me all the time. I get that times change, things change, feelings change, people change, I just never thought it would really happen. You came into my life and made everything okay, you made me smile like nothing else mattered.

But now I just feel like it's never going to be okay again, it's never going to be the same. I'm never going able to get this emptiness out of my heart. I'm never ever going to feel the same like how you made me feel. You're never going to never talk to me the way you used to and you'll never ever care for me like before. & I'm never ever going to let anyone else into my circle that easily again because eventually, they'll leave me behind just like how you did, and I dont think I'd be able to take it.

Yeah but no one gets it. They think it's that simple, that easy, that you're unimportant, insignificant. But it isnt. They know nothing at all. But they dont get it. They dont know how much it means to me.

I need closure. Say Goodbye, or I hate you or whatever. But you just slipped away. So where does this leave me now? Am I supposed to walk away too?

Even if I don’t want it to happen at all? Even if I don’t want to get over you? Because I don’t want to forget the days where you just made my life that much better. I don’t want to forget the the laughs, the talks about everything and anything. I don’t want to stop missing you, if it means forgetting you. I don’t want to not know you anymore.

么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着 你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得
你不等了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呢

Ive been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that's true
Im stuck in time
Im stuck on you
We were still untouchable

tryna reach out to you;

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