I find myself back at blogger at the end of the day.

It’s ok. It’s ok to want someone you can’t have. It’s ok to keep friendships when you don’t want them, or want something more. It’s ok to cry when your hurt, and it’s ok to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe it or not, it’s always gonna be ok. That’s just how it works. Sometimes things don’t work out how you want them to, and a lot of times, it seems like they never will. But it’s ok, thats how life is supposed to go. It’s all about learning how to deal with the bumpy parts in the road, and waiting till their smooth again. It’s all about forgiving and forgetting, it’s all about waiting and wishing. That’s just how life is.

Hello Goodbye

I have decided to move 'house'.
Decided I need a change of home.
A change of heart.
And because Tumblr is cool. Hahaha


www.thatneonsign.tumblr.com

There's actually a reason why I chose this URL for both blogs.
Mainly because of this song :)
Heard it on the radio very long time ago and dint know the lyrics.
But one day, before going to eat at Botak Jones, I heard it on the radio.
Like it found me again :) Means a lot to me. Love the lyrics~

Max Shanti - When I Get There

This may sound crazy
It probably is
But could you tell me where
True love is

Just point me in the right direction
I swear I won't make a sound
I'm looking for a neon sign
It's what I haven't found

They say it's gone south
Where all the good things go
You'll see the flashing lights
And you'll know you'll home

There's no fancy name for it
No one knows who Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
And the promise of bliss
When I get there, it just is

I believe in love
But it's probably not for me
Romance, the chase,
The attractive enigma
No, it's not me

There's no fancy name for it
No one knows who Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
And the promise of bliss
When I get there, it just is

All these questions, I've got to ask before I go
If I never find it, will you let me know

There's no fancy name for it
No one knows who Aphrodite is
It's only rain and rainbows
And the promise of bliss
When I get there, it just is

When I get there, it just is

:(

You asked me not to assume but you're doing the exact same thing.
You're such an ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Used To/ Love Remains The Same

I couldn't stand the misery and emptiness but I knew I would survive, that it wouldn't kill.
Then after 2 weeks I was happy again because I learnt that everyone around me doesn't deserve to get affected by my negative feelings and that I had to stop thinking only about my feelings, that I needed to care less about myself and more for others :)

Then later things were okay again but then I knew it wouldn't last, soon it'd happen again.
Because, people seem to walk away from me all the time.
So I was prepared, and I was right.

What can I say?
Don't expect too much I guess.. Because if not when things go wrong, you'd fall harder than you thought you would. But right now I've got a cushion below me to break my fall. A cushion of love, happiness and hope for th next day to be a better one :) I know it doesn't make sense but it's okay, it's for me to know... And for you to guess.

Also, talking to Muanting helped me figure out that even if you can't care about some people like you used to, or even if you haven't talked to them for a long time, as long as you have them in your heart, it doesn't matter how long it has been, you never stop caring for them, not once, not twice, not ever. The clock ticks and the distance seems so far away, but nothing changes, everything remains the same.

Random

Watched the World cup finals :) and didn't sleep but I had an awesome Monday :) Dont know why I was so high but yeah :) Played 1 hour's of Captains Ball during CCA and I must say it was one of the best games I've ever played! Loved the drama and teamwork and all :)

And I also held the cutest and most beautiful cat Ive ever encountered!!!!! I wish I couldve brought It homeee :'( I feel like going back to find it :) hope it's still in schoool yeah? It made my day too :)
OH and my school is celebrating Racial Harmony Day next week but Ive no idea what to wear!!!! So excited I CANT WAIT :) :) :) it's going to be fun I know!!!

Love

I just talked to Muanting, like heart to heart? Long ago we said we should have one session like that, to bring everyone closer, but we never got around to making it happen. & yeah I decided like I wanted to be there for someone who needs it. And I didnt want to keep any secrets anymore. And I'm glad that we talked :) I'm glad I could brighten her day and make her smile, just like that EZ link card person who made me. I only wished I had done it sooner :)

TAY MUANTING I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I CARE! :D
I'm don't want to be a friend who reads your blog and knows that youre felling crappy but not do anything to make your day better! I know how it feels like, like hoping to know that someone cares about how you feel, about what you write in your blog, because i feel it all the time too? Like hoping someone would respond. You know, like care not in a sense like 'Are you okay' but in the sense that 'Why dont you tell me what's bothering you because I want to share your burden, because I care'. I know you get it :) I'd be here if you need me :)
ANYHOW, DONT STOP SMILING! AND RETARDED IS THE NEW CUTE!
AND DONT LET NO SH*T BRING YOU DOWN! :D

& Teresa, the little things you do, do count, you told me that before I think :) Maybe one day can make breakfast for them or something :) Give them a hug a goodnight kiss.
Just know that I'm here if you need a listening ear okay :)

<3 you all, we got to smile okay?
TOMORROW WILL BE BETTER IF YOU LET IT BE~

Family

After flea with Teresa on Saturday > Dinner at Spring Court :) <3

Something EVERY guy must know

Never ever tell a girl
1) that you're talking to her only because you're bored
( what you take her for? )


2) that you are bored (when talking) 3) that she is boring.
( Because it might mean that talking to her is boring )


LIKE SERIOUSLY.

FLEASHLIGHTBATT3 w TERESA! :D

FLB3 10th JULY!!
Bought like 7 tops+ 1 dress+ 1 High waisted shorts+ 1 Marilyn Monroe bag <3!! + 1 yellow checkered clutch+ 1 pair of pumps and 2 pairs of earrings!! Spent like crazeee but it was worth it and I wish I brought more $$$$$. Love fleas!!
Oh and then to Skatepark to watch cool guyssss at the NYC Extreme competition~~ their moves are awesomeee!

I'm so happy because I lost my ezlink card at DBghaut and only realized it whn I got onto the train, but some kind soul returned it to the control station! :)
Im so grateful and thankful and wish I couldve thanked him/her personally for being so sweeet! I think I thanked the guys at the control station like a million times heh. And was smiling like crazy after that because such people make the world so beautifulll :)
Must remind self to do more good deeds because I'll never know when I can make someone smile like how that someone made me smile :)

LOVED SATURDAY

Mah lootzzzzz :)

CJC Sports Day :)

Track events first :) then Games event!
Hahaha Teresa, Shannon, Wei hao and I signed up for the Eco Challenge which was actually 'Amazing Race' in Botanic Gardens. Ran around like crazy looking for clues for about 2.5 HOURSSSSSS but it was so fun because Botanic Gardens is kind of beautiful and we took pictures and we lost calories too hehehehe :)

cute old man and old lady :) so sweet :)

Heart shaped leaves!! Teresa, Shannon and I took one pair each and they gave their other half away to uhhum* :):) but I kept both cause I dont have anyone to give to hahaha! It's so pretty anyway :) <3

Things I have fallen in love with #3 : FLEA MARKETSS!

FLASHLIGHTBATTERY3!

FLEA AND EASY AT ZOUK! ~~ :D

SO EXCITEDDDD :) Am going to FLASHLIGHTBATT3 tomorrow most likely :):) omigosh 350 stalls!!
That's crazy man cant wait cant wait cant wait :)

& I really really want to go to Flea&Easy @ ZOUK but i dont know if cannn :(
Need 1)Money 2)Time and 3)Mummy's permission
HAHAHA I want to see how Zouk looks like O.o :p

seriously have to squeeze in time to do homeworks!
Especially stupid Project workkk :/

blue eyeliner :)

heart just skipped a beat

If you have to try and convince yourself that you dont care about someone, chances are, you probably care about them more than you realize.

Really? Oh no.

:)

Love going to the Skatepark watching them guys do all the stunts.
like omg it's like they're fearless.
Skateboarding is coooooool :)