I could not hold it in any longer. I could not stay strong. & after the dance audition, I just escaped. Ran away from everybody, everything. Found a secret hiding place to be with my music. Hoping that no one would see the side of me; the me who runs away from everything, the weak me. Yet, also hoping that someone would still appear to make me feel better.
The feeling of disappointment sucks, yeah.
But it feels even worse when I am the one who let myself down.
I had my chance, I even had a second chance.
But I still messed it up.
I feel so stupid. And i bet I looked it too.
I know that after a while, I'll put it behind me and be happy again.
But for now.. I cant help but wallow in self pity.
No comments:
Post a Comment